hey, it's j

been a bit since ive made an update post, so i figured i might as well make one. if youve read any of my posts in the past youll probably notice this is a bit less formal than those, and thats mostly because i dont really actually have much to share

its been a hard year. i kind of got hit with a life steam train. around the time of my madness cartoon i found myself in a situation where i had to find a place fast. i was lucky enough to find a place that was fairly cheap but as a contrast it was also a bit shit. that in addition to that i have started another full time job that stretches my time very thin. on top of that general adult life has prevented me from spending all of my time glued to a drawing tablet.

despite this, i still have plenty of free time which might surprise you given how little of my art makes it onto newgrounds.

to be vague ive been applying my time to another project. one with my face attached to it. which is why ive never promoted it on these accounts. im never going to.

i believe my art should be truly faceless. the art needs to speak for itself.

i know thats crazy to say about art of friday night funkin mods or furry racoon girls on skateboards but i strongly believe that keeping my face off of what i create will make what i make have more expression in itself. unfortunately i also love to show my face and scream my opinions on art of all mediums, and i dont want that attached to the art that represents personal aspects of my life

aside from that i find myself making art im not proud of. while i believe all artists should create just to create regardless of quality, ive also learned a lot in the years since ive started on this website

when i created this i making art just for the sake of it. now i want to hold myself to higher standards.

ive also found myself locked in a battle with depression. i know. so original.

ive known ive had depression since i was in middle school, but its taken on a new form in the past year. the metaphorical voice in the back of my head has turned into to hands choking me at all times. my health and safety are fine, but i still struggle. maybe more than i ever have.

2025 is coming fast and i have no major plans. i only know i want to create something important. important for someone. maybe me. maybe someone else. i dont know how or what. but i want to make something that makes somebody think.

thanks for reading, if youve made it this far i really do appreciate it. whole this was a much more depressing update i promise that the good does outweigh the bad. it always does.

- j

r.i.p. d.d. dilfwad & colette cat

I'm writing this at midnight on my computer's notepad while listening to jacksepticeye while feeling stupidly emotional, so take everything I say going forward with a mountain of salt.

I'm afraid of the direction that online art is constantly shifting in. Newgrounds is a wonderful constantly mind blowing website with so many diffrent types of art that I am constantly blown away with the abilities and creativity I see here. I think it's important for this website to exist in the grand scheme of digital art, in the state we are in. There are very few art websites or social medias as big as NG that are run by community members and artists that interact with their users as much as newgrounds. I know some people complain about this website having a Tom Fulp Circlejerk but I think it's important that the biggest users and moderators on this website are just normal ass people. We live in a time where the art community is constantly under attack, be it from AI or Corps buying out websites, or even the minute shit like websites being vauge so that they can get away with posting shitty garbage to keep weirdo's on their site. Newgrounds is one of the few sites highly pushing against AI, pushing against and corporate fuckery with what art is posted on the website (be that for better or for worse). It allows mediocre artists like me to still have art as a hobby despite everything going on. I don't make it any sort of secret that I use Twitter to improve my reach and post art even more than I do on NG, despite that shit I just talked about, but I post here for a solidarity among artists. Front Paged Art isn't determined by an algorithm, it's determined by admins sitting their ass down and looking at the art on the website. I know This is just me going in circles but I just appreciate how human this website is. It's not trying to pretend it's something it's not, it's purley authentic in what is here. I have met friends I appreciate more than any other people from this website due to the human nature of it.

Growing up I posted my art on DeviantArt (https://www.deviantart.com/gamenerds/gallery go nuts) and it was miserable. I know as an artist I've obviously grown, but that's not what I'm speaking on. I remember deleting my posts because thousands of whole ass adults would come and harass me for my shitty 13 year old furry art. I understand it was ass but I stopped drawing for years after, only really picking it up again a couple years ago and joining NG soon after. And while I didn't get better through any means outside of sticking with it, I have seen some truly shitty art here, but then seen the same artists months later already having grown a ton. The people on this website create such a positive environment for artists to thrive in and it honestly touches me a ton. I know this is just word vomit but I feel like I should just write down my feelings somewhere, so here is that somewhere.

I just want to say I'm very proud on the progress ive made in my skills since 3 years ago

Holy shit I'm not dead. I don't feel like I need to do a whole fuckin prologue for a quick update blog post so I'll do the boring life shit fast.

I've been busy in my day-to-day life. I wake up, run errands, do chores, then work for 10 hours straight, and if I'm lucky I get some time to work on some of my art. I know I haven't been uploading much but it's less about motivation and instead more about work life balance. Personal shit lol.

On top of that I'm working to go to electrical school, and that's been taking up some time as well. If shit takes long to come out, assume that's why.

I also recently took a trip to Boston to meet up with some of my buddies I met on NG! Here's a pic of us at a pizza place!

(From left to right) Gooberthed IcyMire Moldbun Junesdale AlesBrewery (With Pollyanoid behind the cammera)

That's all the life shit out of the way. Let's talk art.

Red Line Train (temp. title)

I've been crunching away at a bit of a personal animation for the past month or so. I've been pretty disappointed with the lack of original animation I've put out so I've decided to just make SOMETHING. I can with confidence say that this will probably be the best piece of animation that I have made. I don't want to spoil too much but hopefully the name will give a clue or two about what the animation (would this be a short film? idk) is about. I'll probably post more frequently about it on my Twitter account, so If you care enough about it go follow me there. Here's some more frames from it!

Other Shit

While I'm working on Red Line other art will probably be pretty space, but ill try to upload other shit every once in a while. Don't expect much from me tho. I don't have anything to show so have this cool picture of Pollyanoid

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2022 has been a hell of a journey for my art and my life. I've been slowly adjusting into whatever an "adult" is and my art has been evolving with me as a person. Over the year art has turned from a hobby to a passion. I've gone from drawing for the fun of it, to a genuine yearn to be more. I think my art has evolved more over the course of this year than it has at any other point in my life, and my journey with it has continued to put a smile on my face. Outside of my art I have been quite busy in my life, but it has only helped drive me into taking my time to make the best art that I can.

Anyways lets stop talking about "feelings" and get into my actual growth in art this year.

Animation

I started this year with an Animation for RecD's Challenge-edd with lyrics video. I'm still somewhat proud of this despite it's simplicity. I used this as an opportunity to get better at backgrounds and weight. While I know I could do better now, I'm still happy with the outcome of this.

And the Final animation I uploaded this year was another animated segment for RecD, this time from hit Date Week with lyrics video. I'm not very proud of this in retrospect, as I know I could do better than this, but time constraints and stress in my life at the time led to an unsatisfying end of the year.

To end this section, in the New Year I plan to release at least 2 cartoons, but with much higher quality, and more originality. I am unhappy with how long it has been taking me to get my projects out, but once I do I promise that It will be worth the wait. I personally hope to get better at lip sync and with subtle movements and to stop using smear frames as a crutch.

Illustrations

I started off the year with this piece and I'm still generally proud of it. I feel like i could redo the background to have less ripped assets and redraw them instead, and would do better shading, but I still really like how interpreted the design of Noelle.

I'm very proud of this piece's framing and color choice. I think I implied a sense of dread greatly and interpreted the designs from The June Archive well into my style.

If there's one illustration that I failed on the most this year, It would be this one. In retrospect I royally fucked over Lucky's design and the shading is flat out dogshit. I think the framing is neat but I hate everything else about it

This redraw I think perfectly shows the growth in my art this year. The colors are much more vibrant, the bodies' proportions are much better, the posing is more dynamic, and the expressions are less forced now! I'm still happy with it and am mentally reminding myself to do more lineless art

This year I heavily struggled with my identity, and tried putting that into art. I often try to avoid art that vents out my feelings, but this was a problem eating away at me so much that it stopped me from doing other things in my life. I feel like I properly was able to convey my feelings and am very proud of my ability to grow as a person and as an artist through this. I can only hope that in the future I'll be able to clearly identify as myself and with my art.

And my final art was more art for RecD. I'm actually extremely proud of this (And the other non uploaded panels) because of the background and shading work. These have been my biggest struggles for the longest time, but I feel as though I finally found a process to making these fun and not look like garbage. I know there is still a lot of room for growth, but I feel like I have made great strides

To conclude next year I hope to... get better at what I'm already doing.

Music

I still can't upload it here so you will just have to take my word

This year I've been fiddling with chiptune a lot, and I want to get better at it. I don't have a ton to say on this with no reference so just pretend this is a better section

FANART

I want to share all the wonderful fanart I got this year

Next year is going to be a big year for me. I promise it.

In the meantime I have one more art piece planned for the year and I hope you enjoy it.

Peace

See this post for more details

https://twitter.com/jOnline_NG/status/1455557796326428679?s=20

Wow, it's been a minute since I've made one of these hasn't it? Regardless I'd like to thank all of yall for supporting me and my art, as I truly enjoy making it. I'm glad others enjoy it as well, and watching myself grow as an artist over that past year has been very fascinating. I've gotten a better grasp of my style, I've made art for YouTube channels, I've made cartoons (By the way, when looking up madenss day on google the first thing you see is my cartoon), I've gotten more friends. It's cool to see how far I have come within the year, and I cant wait to see what happens next. Speaking of which, lets get into that.

The Move

Let's get the boring stuff out of the way first. I moved to Tennessee about 6 months ago, and I have slowly been settling in over that entire time. On top of that I have contracted the infection known as a full time job. This is basically why I have posted much less art than I did when I started this account, on top of me just putting more care into all of my art. Right now I am in a position where I'll be working on art much more often now.

Pick It Up

Remember that cartoon I've been working on since I started this account? Fun fact: I am only just now In a place where any significant work on it is being done. However I can confirm that characters have gone through changes, design and personality wise. Any art of the characters on my account of the characters is probably outdated, but that just makes me that much more excited to show how I've been cooking this up. I promisse when this drops, yall will have your minds turned to goop.

Other Cartoons

While Pick It Up is my main priority at the moment, that Is always subject to change. My main focus when creating a cartoon is to have fun doing so, and if I'm going to have fun doing something else, that's what I'm going to move to. I have a few Ideas for cartoons at the moment, and I hope to make them better than the last two I've made.

Commissions

Ima open commissions soon. Don't know how much. Don't know when. Ill make a more dedicated post when the time comes.

Fanart Spotlight

Sneaky Peak

Hello minions, and welcome to another progress report where I vomit about my upcoming projects and other shit. This one won't be as heavy handed as my previous posts, but I feel I should mention the shit going on before I disappear for a month due to my move. That's enough explanation, let's get into it.

RECD ART TEAM

Fan Art by EllisBros of the last Miitopia stream

I have been accepted to work on RecD's art team, and do various stills and backgrounds for upcoming videos, primarily his Friday Night Funkin' with Lyrics videos. My work will appear in the next video, Week 7 with Lyrics, and many more after. I hope you tune in to the video in mid june to watch, as a lot of heart and soul has gone into these videos from the entire team.

Pick It Up

Sneak peak of the upcoming animation.

Up until me writing this post I have been actively working on this animation and I am very proud with how it is coming along. Unfortunately, due to my move I will not be able to work on this for a short time. Once I am able to I will continue, but I am honestly unable to at the moment. I will say, while this animation is being done in Pencil2D, episodes of the actual series will be done in Adobe Animate. The current episode is being animated to a song by We Are The Union, so this specific animation may not be able to be uploaded to Newgrounds, however I am doing everything in my power for this to be Newgrounds exclusive. If not possible I will upload it to YouTube and Twitter instead.

Art Pieces

Swag art suggestion I drew

The move blah blah blah I wont be able to do as much art as before. Ill post as often as I can, but that wont be often during the move. I will post my art for WEEK 7 with Lyrics once the video is out, but other than that I have nothing planned.

The Move

I'm moving to Tennessee this week. If you live in Tennessee I'm sure you are a perfectly fine person but FUCK I don't want to move.

FANART SPOTLIGHT

Original Post

MY COVER OF M.I.L.F. GOT ME BANNED AND I AM MIFFED

It got picked up as stolen music" despite being made by myself in beepbox

I have been what the kids call "blammed"