hey, it's j

been a bit since ive made an update post, so i figured i might as well make one. if youve read any of my posts in the past youll probably notice this is a bit less formal than those, and thats mostly because i dont really actually have much to share

its been a hard year. i kind of got hit with a life steam train. around the time of my madness cartoon i found myself in a situation where i had to find a place fast. i was lucky enough to find a place that was fairly cheap but as a contrast it was also a bit shit. that in addition to that i have started another full time job that stretches my time very thin. on top of that general adult life has prevented me from spending all of my time glued to a drawing tablet.

despite this, i still have plenty of free time which might surprise you given how little of my art makes it onto newgrounds.

to be vague ive been applying my time to another project. one with my face attached to it. which is why ive never promoted it on these accounts. im never going to.

i believe my art should be truly faceless. the art needs to speak for itself.

i know thats crazy to say about art of friday night funkin mods or furry racoon girls on skateboards but i strongly believe that keeping my face off of what i create will make what i make have more expression in itself. unfortunately i also love to show my face and scream my opinions on art of all mediums, and i dont want that attached to the art that represents personal aspects of my life

aside from that i find myself making art im not proud of. while i believe all artists should create just to create regardless of quality, ive also learned a lot in the years since ive started on this website

when i created this i making art just for the sake of it. now i want to hold myself to higher standards.

ive also found myself locked in a battle with depression. i know. so original.

ive known ive had depression since i was in middle school, but its taken on a new form in the past year. the metaphorical voice in the back of my head has turned into to hands choking me at all times. my health and safety are fine, but i still struggle. maybe more than i ever have.

2025 is coming fast and i have no major plans. i only know i want to create something important. important for someone. maybe me. maybe someone else. i dont know how or what. but i want to make something that makes somebody think.

thanks for reading, if youve made it this far i really do appreciate it. whole this was a much more depressing update i promise that the good does outweigh the bad. it always does.

- j

r.i.p. d.d. dilfwad & colette cat